• Sidi Dominator Cycling Shoes by Jay Goodrich

    Jay Goodrich's 22 year old Sidi Dominator cycling shoes that he wears for all types of rides.

Clod Hopping for Twenty Two Years

As our planet gets more technologically advanced, we seem to throw away more and more on a yearly basis. Computers, phones, tablets, cars, bikes, cameras and crazy words like clod hopping. All disposable. Better, stronger, faster, lighter, year-in and year-out. My parents held onto everything until it was completely and utterly falling apart. My dad had these freakin’ plaid pants that were right out of the 50s’ but it was 1990. My friends and I nicknamed him “Plaid”. He even took to it and lived it, until one day when were all old enough and strong enough to sit and drink with him. It took four of us to hold him down and cut those pantaloons off of him, but we did it. One of my friends even made a head band out of those polyester fugly pants and wore it at the Friday night parties for months as we dropped keg stand after keg stand and funnel after funnel.

Now that was staying power. I have to say that I am now following suit. Not with plaid pants thank fully, but with a pair of cycling shoes from Sidi that I bought 22 years ago. The Dominator. I bet they never thought there would be a whacked out mountain bike photographer still riding with those stinky, dirt covered, blue leather shoes with just a hint of ugly fluorescent green. My Sidis have ridden in every Western state and most Eastern ones too. They have clipped into the first clip-less pedals that Shimano made and now clip into the lightest, most expensive pair ever made – the Quad Ti by a company named Crank Brothers. They have been ridden over one hundred thousand miles. Have been rain soaked and mud encrusted thousands of times. Have been through ten separate bikes and now alternate between three on a weekly basis. They are scuffed and even have some of their seams falling apart, but have worked without issue for twenty two years.

These shoes are a testament to an era that seems to be falling by the waist-side. My mission is to now keep them, much in the same way my father kept his plaids, until you or my children pry them from passed out and drunken feet.

In the same breath a package arrived at my door today. A brand-new shiny box. Inside was a frame to a bike that I once owned. This bike is one of a very few. A machine built by a man name Chris Chance. It was created in 1995. At the time, it was the beginning of the full-suspension mountain bike era. This bike was completely fabricated by hand and made of chromoly steel in Massachusetts. Shock-a-Billy number 30. These bikes are rare because shortly after his company disappeared, swallowed up by the stream of newer, faster, lighter, etc. Mine was custom made just for me after I wrote a letter to Chris and his wife begging for one. This was in fact my third bike by them for me. It was in fact a family matter to some extent. The letter might have been the first piece of writing where I realized my passion for it. I will probably spend more time and money restoring this machine than it originally cost me, but how often does hindsight give you a redo?

So as I write a check for my brand new Canon 1DX, I will keep abusing my poor old shoes until they burst under the strain of my daily rides or my kids make buy some trendy new Chinese-made plastic pieces of shit that don’t last a season. Thank you Sidi for a least making those $200 shoes depreciate at less than $10 a year for the last 22. Film didn’t even last that long in my photography career. One can only guess what the horizon holds.

As for the frame…I will probably post more about the Fat Chance as we restore a much more beaten sole. Beaten, but just like the shoes, not broken.

  • Skiing Out of Darkness Mount Baker Washington by Jay Goodrich

    Owen Dudley skis out of the darkness during a brief clearing in the backcountry near Mount Baker Ski Area.

That is the Sound of Inevitability

I stood there looking at myself in the mirror. The scene unfolding was reminiscent of a Hunter S. Thompson novel. Gritty face. Bloodshot eyes. A general foggy demeanor spiraling around my hungover head. The girl that was to become my wife was lying naked in the bed behind me. It was my first commercial photo shoot, there is absolutely no reason that I should be feeling this way. I grabbed for the Advil, Alka-seltzer, and water, need water. My tongue felt like I was a cat preparing to cough up a hairball. It is safe to say there were sweaters covering my teeth. I heard the music of last night’s party still ringing in my ears. I vaguely remember some nakedness to the point of mild porn in the gondola last night with hand-held flash going off as random as a dance strobe in a techno bar, but the fog was doing its best to hide any and all of those embarrassments. Did I really take it this far? I mean, I got paid to do this to myself. This was only a wedding for god’s sake. Was this going to be the rest of my life and career?

Almost two decades later, I was in the same place. A mirror, in a bathroom, with sweaters on my teeth. In Vancouver this time, not Vail. Yes, I was shooting an assignment. This time about the Olympics and ski dirtbags. It’s good to see that many things have changed and many things have not. I am married with two kids now. My wife told me to go and have fun. This wasn’t feeling much like fun. The dirtbags woke me up off of my couch at about 2am as the whole party went nuclear. Much like the light porn I still vaguely remember from the wedding in Vail so long ago, it began with a concept, a contract, and unlimited handshaking, touring, and of course skiing. I only remember my friends prying my eyes open and asking if I was awake. The smell of spilled red wine, tequila, and beer permeated the condo. We were supposed to ski today and the snow was falling out of the sky like never before on this journey. Very similar to the brain cells that were littering the floor before me.

My life consists of writing, photographing, and family. Sometimes there is a little sleep thrown in there, but most times not. I pushed for this career, I dreamt of it, I wished for it, and there are many times that the dream of frolicking through the wild flowers without a care in the world turns into the Freddy Kruger of nightmares. Like I have always said and probably always will, lob the grenade into the room first, then head in, resurrect the broken and busted survivors to do it again on another day. Would I change my life? Sometimes there are parts that I would. Spending more time with my family so they don’t hate me so much, and trying to be a better man, I seem to be caught in the phase of always trying. I am standing on the precipice of 15 years as a professional photographer and writer and I am only truly scratching the surface of that lifestyle and occupation.

Many ask me how I do it? They want the remedy to fix their dreams, hopes, and career paths. My advice is always-Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you cannot do something. Envision it and go after full-tilt, like you were running from that brown bear and your life depended on it. The results will be shocking, almost to the point of perfection, if you stay away from the psychotic episodes. I have brought my entire personal life to my career and vice versa. I live the dream and the nightmare, every day. It is safe to say that tomorrow I will drop another monster backcountry line full of cold smoke powder and on Sunday will be shooting another hotel for Hilton. It’s all about living in balance with the world, nature, family, and concepts. Some days it’s as perfect as three feet of consolidated, bonded, trackless powder and other times that it is as rotten as a freezing trend after ten inches of rain. It is safe to say that tomorrow, I will fix the hand grenades of today and the cycle will continue. Inevitably.

  • Air in the Mist by Jay Goodrich

    Owen Dudley catches air in the mist of the Northwest Rainforest near Bellingham, WA.

Adventure is Most Definitely a Journey

Or is the journey an adventure? I think the two are so interconnected and interrelated that you cannot have one without the other. I have been living an adventure for a very long time now and it is has definitely been a journey. An experience. Life like in all respects. There are those sayings–Life is like a journey…With age comes wisdom…etc. Full of twists, turns, ascents, and descents.

The whole concept of adventure and journey can fit into any aspect of life. Or life itself. Think about it. Creativity. Those who seek it regularly, discover it is full of twists, turns, peaks, and valleys. Life is the same way. Growing older. Peaks, valleys, twists and turns. Exploration. Peaks, valleys, twists and turns. All of it, every complete part of it is connected to the ideals. It doesn’t matter where, when, or how you are at any given point in your personal life, professional life, or creative life. You will encounter journey and adventure and life. Symbiosis. Very much like the relationship of aperture, shutter speed and iso.

The key to your success in any aspect of whatever is very simple and very hard. Recognize how to rise from the valley. How to prolong the peaks. To lean into the turns. And continuously grow and progress. The reason it is difficult is because the clues along the way may not be placed right out in front of you. Hence the reason the journey is an adventure and the adventure is a journey and it all corresponds to just about every scenario you can place in front of it.

To abstract? Maybe. Or maybe not? You be the judge. Think about it and think about every experience you have had to this date. Were the mistakes you made avoidable? If only one decision went a different way would have the whole thing turned out differently? Better or worse. With age comes wisdom, but does wisdom come if you are not open to experiencing all that life throws at you? If you don’t ride the mistakes and climb to the peaks, where will you be? And is the valley necessarily a bad place? Think about Picasso’s Blue Period. If you sit on the couch watching tv will you be a better person than if you make a mistake in the mountains and a death in your party results from it? All possibilities based on action and reaction.

I am hoping that this post forces you to think about your life. Your journeys and adventures. It may pose more questions than answers, but it is those questions that may have you realizing that at 2:01PM you have the ability to turn every adventure and every journey right around from whatever it isn’t to whatever it should be. The same holds true at 2:02PM, 2:03PM, and 2:04PM. Now stop reading.

Not Goodbye Just So Long

dad photo

I think my mom said it best today, “John was a crusty exterior filled with a warm marshmallow center.” And after listening to friend after friend of his describe their experiences with my father, I couldn’t agree more. My father was a hard man to understand and know, but once you made it through that hardened exterior you were in for life. He would stop at nothing to fix whatever trouble you were in. Even if that meant crossing illegal borders with a small army to break you out of an international prison. Many people didn’t “like” him because they didn’t understand him. He had no filter, no buffer. He called it like he saw it and that wasn’t necessarily the way the people around him wanted it put. You did know exactly who he was though. As you learned more about the person he was you learned that there were special buttons that would set him off and the other special buttons that would diffuse his explosiveness.

There were times throughout the course of my life with my father that I loved him, hated him, needed him, respected him, and disagreed with him. He was a man who could figure out how to fix anything. He could build anything. And he did it until the last days of his life. He never needed to rely on anyone but himself, until the last few weeks of his life. He was a two-hundred pound, six-foot tall giant. He taught me to shoot and respect guns, how to fly airplanes, how fix my car, how to trick out my car, and how to swim at three years old. I returned the favor a few years ago by taking him flying for the first time in close to thirty years. I never saw him smile that way prior. Grinning ear to ear.

Looking back there were decisive moments in my life were I knew that I had won a place in my father’s heart and soul for eternity. One was the day that I called and told him I was a licensed pilot and the other came unexpectedly as we sat drinking beer by the swimming pool a day after he met his first grandchild. It was dark out, a hot summer evening in New Jersey, the sound of crickets around. He took a swig of his Samuel Adams Lager and said under a quiet and confident voice, “I never imagined in a million years you would be the father that I never was.” I looked over a bit confused. Took it all in and realized what he just said. I said nothing. He continued, “I am so proud of you, that little girl is going to be something very special.” “Thank you.” I drank some more beer.

As I cried my brains out today as his friends spoke, my daughter, Jade, made herself around the room hugging not only me, but every single person, that shed tears as well. I reflected on what they said and realized one very important thing. He saw and knew what I had yet to perceive. I had learned from him, I had taken all of the good and thrown out all of the bad to become a better parent, a better person. And hopefully Jade will in turn do the same to me.

As I head onto the plane home, I will leave you with two things. My grandmother would always say to me, “Never say goodbye, just so long.” Why? “Because goodbye is forever and so long is until I see you again.” And the other is the quote that my sister picked for the remembrance card, “Fill not your hearts with pain and sorrow, but remember me in every tomorrow. Remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles, I’ve only gone to rest a little while. Although my leaving causes pain and grief, my going has eased my hurt and given me relief. So dry your eyes and remember me, not as I am now, but as I used to be. Because, I will remember you all and look on with a smile. Understand, in your hearts, I’ve only gone to rest a little while. As long as I have the love of each of you, I can live my life in the hearts of all of you.

So long father. I hope you are flying and shooting guns every single day without pain, without hesitation, and for an eternity, until we meet again.

  • Mountain Biking Aspen by Jay Goodrich

    Heather Goodrich rides on the Government Trail in Aspen, Colorado.

5 Things I Love About Life

These are in no particular order and all of equal importance.

-Exercise. I don’t care what it is, skiing, mountain biking, road riding, walking with my daughter, hiking, backpacking, running, trail running, weight lifting, Tai Chi, or the 12 ounce curl. I need it, live for it, breathe it, it is my drug of choice. The feeling of pain and soreness at the end of the week or after a long workout, allows me to feel life. And just when you thought you could go no farther, endorphins kick in, to push you past it all.

-Family. Particularly, when I get home after a long trip. Having my daughter running into my arms makes me believe in life. And of course brings a tear to my eye. They support you when you need it most and for that there is no replacement.

-Creativity. It doesn’t have to come in the form of photography, creativity gives me the life experience. I am starting to draw with something most never even consider–colored pencils. But that is not all. I love linking together a set of turns down the side of mountain, or cleaning a difficult obstacle on a bike. Simply put, you can find and be creative at just about anything on this planet.

-Nature. So many people forget to actually smell the roses. Forget the couch, unless it is time for an afternoon siesta. Go out to the beach at sunset and watch the sun kiss the horizon, stand on top of the tallest mountain and do the same. Take a walk in a city park. Go camping and build a fire. My spirit is always rejuvenated when I venture out into the wilds and smell the life.

-Food. Not that processed crap you buy in a gas station. I am talking about a meal. Home cooked or at a really fine restaurant. Great chefs hand you a piece of their soul when they hand out something they have created. This is the fuel for the life engine. The better I eat, the better I perform–at everything. I love tasting this aspect of life.

Now go out this weekend and find your own things, or try one of mine. I know I will.